25 February 2011

25th.

Today was somemore the best day that I had in my life! ~
Life just has to go on no matter what.
Today was just somehow the best but I just ask something stupid... ~ MOVIEMOVIE~
Idk jus feel that numb out of a sudden... maybe... just no good.
WAKE UP MAN QING, this is what I told myself but still can't get through with it~
stop day dreaming~
feel like ending it alll... when no one care what you are doing no one care where the fuck are you no one ask bout you no one ask you out no one even message you just no one cares. only you.
Sometime I just feel like sitting there & wait for time to pass by me & bye~ ./.

22 February 2011

Longest day of my life today. The 22nd.

Today I don't know why everything just get in my way. When to swimming it rain but still can went for a swim.
Mums giving my problems Dad giving me problems, Bro don't wanna come out with me... What the fuck is this? I just simply feel like going back to the past where I walk out there where everybody fear of & have that power to speak like no one dare to talk bout.
Brother? those who won't change will last not the royal one!
so many out of it none of them!!!
Just FUCK up this moment!
Just feel like today is the worst of all!
If I can die without going to hell I will! Just jump down from 6th floor only what like what my friend told me.
Should use back the old words ar Scare what? Bo Ji ar? Huat la!
Many people don't know why I'm so serious bout going out what time meet why don't be late all that cause I wanna be serious bout all the things that I said abo you all think all the things that I said is SHIT.
Last time I use to do to many things that I shouldn't have done in life just that I'm lucky never get caught red handed or what...
So on my 17th birthday my wishes to myself is I Must Really be Serious bout What I want... & I should just walk out from the past and live on what am I now.
&$%^&*
One way or other I can't see or feel what am I anymore.

21 February 2011

A toy for you.

6. I'm still thinking whether should I really go for it not.
`Why I be so kind to help some one that I'm not close with cause I want to get to know more bout you.

I'm someone that alot people don't really get to understand me&what I want. Even the one who gave me a name don't understand me!
How I hope that I can be with you just for that moment will do, you can't forget bout the past I will wait. This is the first time that I really want to get serious bout it but there are way to many things for me to worry right now. If I can I would really want to tell you how I feel bout you & just only just hope that you can let me wait for you will do.
Just hope that time would change you&me.
T.T :x :o :< :[ :\ :...

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20 February 2011

Day5, I just can't stop myself from it. Should I just end it.

My Vision of you is getting away more&more.
Maybe it's just my fault to read so much in to it.
Maybe I should just forget bout it or even pretend that nothing had happen before.
The day of the hell haven't come but I had already fallen.
Numb.
How I wish that I can go back to the time when I'm only a small boy! `Words that hurt the most & Action kills it.

A new start for me!


I had already start all over again.
`TO MANY THINGS for me to worry... T.T! Lucky I had all my brothers for me to talk tooo T.T!
Can't I just have a day that I have nothing to worry bout?!
Sometime I just feel like start my life all over again you know!
None of you understand what I want even the one who welcome me to the earth one also don't! Feel F-ed up!
JUST LET IT BE!
I DONT SAY TOMORROW I DO WHAT I CAN FOR TODAY!!!

Can I meet you half way?